There is, in fact, an incredible freedom in having nothing left to lose.

Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia

My god! People say. You have so much self control! And later: My god. You’re so, so sick. When people say this, they turn their heads, you’ve won your little game. You have proven your thesis that no-body-loves-me-every-body-hates-me,guess-I’ll-just-eat-worms. You get to sink back into your hospital bed, shrieking with righteous indignation. See? You get to say. I knew you’d give up on me. I knew you’d leave.

Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia